I am in a strange house, the thick air is enclosed by grimy walls. I am lying on my back, face up and as I seek familiarity, I'm greeted by the back of a foreign woman's head resting on a scarred neck and ashy shoulders. She is on top of me, swaying her hips from left to right in a circular motion. I am perplexed by what I'm seeing but what I'm feeling is as clear as day. This feels dirty, sickening, impure. Her subtle moans and groans begin to pick up momentum as the reality of this moment dawns on me, "I am being raped". Anger takes over and I immediately jolt this foreign species off of me. Her face is faint, and not only am I struggling to identify who she is, I can't seem to piece together what she is. Her face begins to fade away, consumed by the filth and stench of the space. "Who is she?" I question. I'm going to kill her... I wake up.
This is the first dream that set in motion a cycle of unsettling dreams. The settings and events were unique to each dream but there was a common thread of violation. Emotional, physical and spiritual violation. Day turned into night, dusk turned into dawn. Fear began to cripple me; pain obliterated my faith. I struggled to go on my knees and pray, words failed me. I mean, what would I be praying for? What would I be praying against? I think what really got to me was the bewilderment, the inability to fathom...you cannot fight what you don't know. I was overshadowed by darkness and I was in dire need of God's light. I needed to bask in the fullness of this light cause "you cannot fight darkness with darkness, the light of consciousness is all you need" - Ekhart Tolle. Light in this case would be knowledge, wisdom and understanding so I opened my bible and got into the word...
Throughout history, it has been normal for celestial beings in the spiritual realm to interact with human beings here on earth. However, I was stunned to learn about interactions that are of a sexual nature. I stumbled across Genesis 6v1-4 "When the human population began to grow rapidly on the earth, the sons of God saw the beautiful women of the human race and took any they wanted as their wives... In those days, and even afterward, giants lived on earth, for whenever the sons of God had intercourse with human women, they gave birth to children who became the heroes mentioned in legends of old." This is further reiterated in the Book of Enoch "And they took wives for themselves and everyone chose for himself one each. And they began to go into them and were promiscuous with them. And they taught them charms and spells, and they showed them cutting of roots and trees. And they became pregnant and bore large giants. And their height was three thousand cubits." 1 Enoch 7v1-3.
Notably, one of the sons of God was a cherub known as satan. This is echoed when God expresses disappointment in Ezekiel 28v14-16 "I ordained and anointed you as the mighty angelic cherub. You were on the holy mount of God; you walked among the fiery stones. You were blameless in your ways from the day you were created till wickedness was found in you. Through your widespread trade you were filled with violence, and you sinned. So I drove you in disgrace from the mount of God, and I expelled you guardian cherub, from among the fiery stones." The cherubium are 2nd and 7th in Christian Angelic Hiearchy and Jewish Angelic Hierarchy respectively. They are honoured as mighty Beings appointed to carry God's throne.
God's word began to obliterate the disorientation created by my vivid dreams. The overwhelming feeling of discontentment I felt in my core was real. What I saw, what I felt...was real. A shadow was violating my body and tormenting my spirit. And now that I was validated, now that I understood, now that there was a glimpse of light...it was time to make hell nervous.
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